“What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life? / The world would split open.”
Poet Muriel Rukeyser

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Februray 15: The Day Is Here...my big 50

Well, the day has finally arrived, my 50th birthday. Hard to believe I began this blog six months ago, in anticipation of this day. Waiting for it, moving into it, was intense some days, easy others, and included some real dark days when I was sick.
Now, thanks to some amazing care by a Jungian therapist and a chiropractor (both named Steve....we're looking at my "inner Steve", that part of myself that is being developed, the male side of me?? which came up from my dream about the vestry retreat, a Tsunami, and a male guide who led me to safety....) I am doing better than I have for years. I feel strong, centered, calm, even happy. Nothing has really changed. I am still looking for a new job. I still have lots of stress. I still have all the same stuff...but I feel good.
Go figure. It's not about denial but about facing life head on.
Recently I went out and bought two new dresses for my birthday. One, a slim black dress for dinner tonight with kids and hubby. We are going to my fav Italian place. Then I bought a fun dress for Friday night when just my husband and I will go to a French restaurant. Both dresses are unusual for me. I am looking forward to having some good food with my favorite people, my family.
But first my son and I are going out for breakfast...it's so sweet my14 year old wants to have breakfast with me on a day he has "late start" for school... then I have to spend the day in Chicago at a diocesan meeting. After that I am going for a manicure and pedicure....then dinner with my family.
All in all, seems like a good way to spend my birthday. Maybe I'll even take some pictures tonight and post them....
Ok 50's, here I come.